i wonder..

don't like anything, want everything, hollow deepest space.. miss nothing coz nothing was there to miss in the first place, every time shit happens and i struggle to wipe my ass..


i wonder what a virus thinks! i wonder if there are organisms that has a life span of nano seconds..i wonder if those organisms live in the world of atoms.. i wonder if god can conceive the amount of big bangs going inside our heads..i wonder if we can really see the ripples of gravitation making and breaking lives..i wonder if god is sure abt what he is doing..i wonder if steels and chairs breathe air of their own..i wonder if bad is good in the other world..i wonder if a god thinks..

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and what do i see in my dream? just another dream....
all promises made up in whim are just another whim........

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felt like that when i was a teenager
turned myself to a star-gazer
now a bit matured..a bit stronger..
still i stay with the stars a bit longer...

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thorns remain, roses come and go.

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you r the one
who makes my heart beat
you r the one
who makes it hard to breathe...

no matter how much i dream
it's still the same
pretending not to kno u
when they call your name
tell me girl..
how many hearts u've broken

those simple words that said so much
that u missed me and to keep in touch
were all just words u said to yo frens
tell me girl..
how many hearts u've broken again...

girl you make the mountains sway
my heart is just a feather
still I m feeling blue
in this sunny weather..

coz no matter how much I dream
it’s still the same
pretending not to kno u
when they call your name
tell me girl..
how many hearts u’ve..

HEART FRACTURE

this feeling like when u don't breathe for a while
but u still somehow manage to smile
virtual happiness fades in slow
dreams lost between pillow
that spark when she spoke to you
the same old world but the feelings so new
blooming roses in autumn deserts
beating hearts in morning dew
that feeling like when u don't breathe for a while
but still u cant stop to smile

those simple words that made your day
painted blood for hearts of clay
soft smiles to set your free
sweeter than the shade of tree
all but now a dust in vision
the same old world creating illusion
dying air from ocean waves
breaking hearts in spring season
this feeling like when u don't breathe for a while
but u still somehow manage to smile

blue skies that wind and rain
silly smiles to cover up yo pain
crowded laughter slowly fades
silence like the winter blades
that feeling when sun brushed her face
garden lily swayed in her grace
night stars from mountain top
falling down in warm embrace
that feeling like when u cant breathe for a while
but now a past to look back and smile..

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a damsel here and cloudy sky.......she sits there waiting for someone... i stand here lost in her reverie..... a bike comes and she goes with someone.